waking up next to you
is my favourite thing
in the world.
you think you look disgusting
and i know you feel grotty
because i do too
but seeing you look
(and so beautiful)
only proves to me
that i’m not still
trapped in a beautiful
dream from the
I’m finally, FINALLY, coming for you!!!!
Countdown: 36 days!!
S: There is this creepy guy that stays around my area that Mama will always say that is her son-in-law. I will always tell her if she really wants him as a son-in-law. She will just keep quiet after that.
V: You go and ask her if she would want ME and a son-in-law.
S: Hehehe more like if you want her to be your mother-in-law is more important.
V: I have to answer that politically correct. Yes…..
I would like to think I’m worthy of your love.
Or am I just a worthless kid waiting on nothing?
I’ve dreamt of us being together.
Starting a family.
I’m waiting. Still waiting.
I’ve been wanting a bundt pan for the longest time e v e r. Inbetween conversations with V, I would casually bring it up. Not as a hint(fo realz) but as a “I would like to have it but I wouldn’t buy it for myself because it’s too expensive but talking about it makes me happy”, topic.
V: Want to go to the baking store?
S: YESSSS PLEASEEEE.
– Just going to a baking store makes me elated.
Along the way to the store, I decided to double check if I brought my credit card/NETS. Dundundun…… I didn’t.
S: Ermssss bao…..
S: I hope you brought cash because I didn’t. x_x
V: Really ah? Then you bring wallet 没有用!?
S: Hehe thank you la I pay you back.
I already feel bad(30% only) for making him drive me to Bukit Timah and then pay for whatever I want to buy.
This is worse than using a credit card! #firstworldproblems
We’ll see how it goes!
I really do not understand the concept/reasoning/belief of fortune telling. Would you really believe a strangers opinion of you or your loved ones at the drop of a hat? No. Put that stranger in a context of a fortune teller. Will you believe it then? Yes.
I just don’t fucking get it!!!!! WHY. You add ~25 years to the picture and you’re still harping on it. Why the fuck for?! Well all* of you can fuck off now because I’m his family.
I really do not wish you any harm but truthfully, I do. May karma bite you in the ass before it bites be for cursing you. Pffffffft.
-insert long strew of vulgarities known to mankind- _|_
*a certain group of people.
I ranted a whole lot to C today about V and his job and how our fights centred around it.
For example, if he falls asleep 3 minutes into our Skype call, it can’t be helped because he’s tired from work and I shouldn’t get angry.
For example, if he goes out for drinks and get home late, it can’t be helped because he never goes out for drinks with his friends and I shouldn’t get angry.
For example, if he doesn’t reply immediately – or after 5 hours/1 day/5 days etc., it can’t be helped because he’s busy with work/out in the jungle/diving/parachuting and I shouldn’t get angry.
Every single time I get angry, it’s a l w a y s about his job.
C then told me that what if you guys get married and he might not be there at our child’s birth, their first steps, first words, first day of school…. Then it hit me, can I do this on my own? I used to think that I can do this because it’s been almost 3 years and its a part of my life. Then children had to come in the picture.
But do I love him enough?
Sometimes I feel like I’ve had enough, yet sometimes I feel like I should press on.
3. Fucking. Years.
Am I crazy or just have nothing better to do????
Fuck this. Fuck that.